Hỏi thế gian tình là chi? Mô phật - Page 21

vuongminhthy · #**201** 06-08-2012, 02:50 PM

Ngày 6-8,

Còn mười phút nữa là phải vào phòng conference. Ngồi đây, bổng dưng cảm giác khó thở trong lòng ngực, my chest is hurting. What's going on? Có cần schedule doctor appointment không nhỉ? Nhưng chắc có lẽ bác sĩ cũng chỉ nói stress mà thôi, vậy thì đi khám bệnh làm chi cho mất công? Besides, I have no time for a doctor's visit right now.

Hôm nay là cơ hội cuối cùng, I have to pick J up at the airport tonight. This is my only alone time with him, my only chance. Shall I tell him the news that is waiting for him at home? Or let her speaks to her husband first? sigh. Không biết phải làm thế nào. I need advices.

Just talked to Hùng. Told him everything that is going on between H and I. He said "oh, I knew about her feelings all along."

What?! You knew??? And you never bother to let me know? You let me go over there helping her everyday and you didn't tell me her secrets... Oh my god bro, what is wrong with you man? Sao lại có người vô tâm như vậy nhỉ?

smh

So I asked Hùng "dude why didn't you let me know?"
"Oh, I didn't think she would make a move on you. Because you know, you're married and all that jazz. But I guess now that Allie isn't here so H decided to confess. Sorry bro, you're in some deep sh** trouble!"

smh

At least before I hung up the phone he told me "I believe you M. And I'll let dad know you didn't do sh**, it was her ideas. I'll take your side if it comes down to a big fight."

Thanks for the warning Hùng. But I'm in no mood of fighting, especially J. I have been in many fights but I really don't want to fight J.

I have a feeling that this woman is going to be the end of my family. Poor Anna, she needs her grandfather, aunts, uncles, and cousins. Bé đã mất tình thương của người mẹ, đã tội nghiệp lắm rồi, không thể nào mất thêm tình yêu của ông Nội và người thân trong gia đình nữa

Nản lòng

vuongminhthy · #**202** 06-08-2012, 04:02 PM

I can't believe I just excused myself from the conference, went to the restroom and puked. Lần thứ hai bị nôn mửa trong đời, lần đầu là lúc clubbing ở Drexel. Smh. Chóng mặt và đau đau ở ngực

vuongminhthy · #**203** 06-08-2012, 04:05 PM

Can't wait for this guy's presentation for be over, i'm about to pass out.

TT_LưuLyTím_TT · #**204** 06-08-2012, 06:34 PM

Ít ngủ, ít ăn, lâu ngày cơ thể yếu không đủ đề kháng... Tốt nhất đi gặp dr đi David. Hope you get well soon

vuongminhthy · #**205** 06-09-2012, 07:05 AM

Ngày 6-9 @ 2:38 am,

Ngồi trước màn hình của labtop mãi. Có rất nhiều điều muốn viết nhưng không biết bắt đầu ra sao. Cuối cùng cũng đưa ra quyết định, phải đi thôi. Có một người bạn khuyên nên rút lui, rời khỏi nơi này. Nếu làm như vậy mà gia đình người ta hàn gắn lại thì không còn gì lưu luyến nữa.

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I picked James up at the airport. Anna was there, sitting in the back seat. She was sick in the afternoon, threw up all over the place at day care. Ms. Smith told me Anna had a temperature earlier in the day. But her fever broke after her daily nap, that was the reason why day care did not give me a call. I was in conference all day. If I would have known Anna was sick then I would go home right away. Tội nghiệp quá. I didn’t take good care of her. Allison! Xin lỗi em. Anh đã không làm tròn trách nhiệm chăm lo cho con gái của chúng ta. Bé cứ bệnh mãi.

I dropped James off at his house, helped him unload his suitcases. My little nephew was sleeping already. It was also Anna’s bed time so I was going to leave but Hùng showed up.

Hùng said he wanted to see James because both of them haven’t seen each other in a while. What a bad lier, smh. But thanks for trying to help, bro, even though you can’t lie, atleast not in front of me. I can read you like a book smh. But heck! I understand you meant well. So thanks again. Out of all of my brothers Hùng and I are the closest. So I knew why Hùng was there. I looked at his face and I could just tell. He called Hằng and confronted her about the “paper works” that she claimed she talked to the lawyer. And so he came over because like he said before, he predicted there would be a huge fight.

So as soon as James sat down on the couch the conversation between him and his wife started. I didn’t pay attention because I was standing a couple meters away from where they were sitting, holding Anna in one arm, and showing her how to unzip her uncle’s suitcase. While Hùng was standing right behind me, which means he was in the middle of James and I. Anyway, she had paper works all ready for James to sign, dated and all. When did she started all of this? No idea. Must be planning all along. And I came over to her house all the time, but I was clueless. Speaking of me being clueless. How could I not know what was going on? Sao bản thân lại vô tâm như vậy, trong suốt một thời gian dài mà không hề phát hiện điều gì cả. Sigh. I must be blind.

I had no idea what she said to him or how she started the conversation. All I can remember was her mentioning my name, and the “no fault divorce paper.” Poor James, he was even more clueless than myself. So I guess out of all three of us men, Hùng is the only one knew the secret that was hidden all along.

As soon as James stood up from the couch, Hùng immediately pointed at her and said something along the line of… something that made James angry. And then all of a sudden I saw a side of James that I have never seen before. He punched Hùng in the face, smh. TTL Hùng’s nose is still attached. I stood a couple meters from the fight but deep down inside I knew that punch was meant for me. Hùng got hit. He got hit not because of what he said to her, or called her. But because Hùng was standing near by so he became the victim. That punch wasn’t meant for him. Cũng bởi vì Hùng đứng gần kề nên lãnh đủ, chịu đòn dùm cho người khác. Hùng, being the younger brother, but wanted to strike back at the oldest brother of the family, smh. I knew things were about to get ugly so I had to do something. Couldn’t just stood there and watched my brothers murder each other. And I also knew if Hùng decided to strike back, James would have no luck. “You, Hùng and his gangs.” That’s what my father always said to me when he got annoyed.

So there were my two brothers, who are very close to me, trying to kill each other right in the middle of the living room, on the night before we were about to leave to Philly, for the big family reunion on Sunday. And I had to stop the fight.

The only excuse I had atm to stop the fight was to ask them not to fight in front of my daughter. Which means I told Hùng to take Anna outside and wait in the SUV. At first, Hùng refused, smh. I had to explain to him that the situation has to be resolve between the people involved. He has nothing to do with this, so please, just leave with Anna. During that time, Anna was bawling her eyes out because she was so scared. She kept screaming at James and Hùng “be nice! Be nice!”

After Hùng took off with Anna, there were three of us left. And what happened… happened. James found his target that he was angry at.

I just stood there, watched my brother, who I respect the most, threw the first punch, and the second, and the third... I knew his heart was broken when everything was over and he asked me “why couldn’t you keep your pants on?” That was really painful to hear. I predicted him saying worse things than that but it was still painful to hear those words coming from James’ mouth. He didn’t trust me. He thought I am who I was.

Then, the final words came out of my brother’s mouth. This time, James asked “is he really my son?” James didn’t mentioned but I knew right away the word “he” in the sentence meant my little nephew. At that minute, I understood it wouldn’t matter what I explain, I already lost a brother. I lost James. So I shook my head and looked at her. She remained silent through out the whole fight. And didn’t even bother to explain to her husband that the baby is his.

I’m mentally exhausted. I’m tired of explaining things to people. I did not touch her, or had any physical contact with her since my freshman year in college. And if my brother, my own blood related brother, doesn’t believe me then I have nothing to say. I love my nephew, and I will raise him as one of my own if for some reason both parents have any doubts in him, but he is really not my son.

After all of the screaming, cursing and confrontation, I left the house. She was crying as I was leaving the door.

Hùng was so angry at James for doubting me so Hùng got in his car and drove away to … lord knows where. I don’t. But I appreciate him stopping by tonight. He tried to help.

To be honest, until now, I have no idea why she cried. She got what she wanted, a broken family. Everything is over. Anna and I can’t stay here. We have to pack quickly and leave. My father is going to find out and I can just tell what he will say. He is going to tell me not to come back ever again. He will say the same thing he always said “if you leave, go far away.” Vậy là có thêm một gia đình đỗ bể nữa. Another family adding on to my long list, my collection of bad deeds, smh. What have I done? I’m terrible. Sigh.

I need to visit Allie before I leave. Chỉ có em tin tưởng anh.

Ngày 6/9/2012
@3:05
David